Wednesday, January 26, 2022

Love & Pain = Sacrificial Love


Sacrificial Love


To find the difference, I tried in vain 
Only to learn in this there be none
To know the difference of love and pain

One without the other, one can go insane
Its the balance of both where each is spun
Finding the difference, I tried in vain

For deep in the heart resides their domain
Connecting the two from where it begun
Knowing no difference of love and pain

For Christ died in pain for us out of love
As God gave His only Son as a sacrifice
Both love and pain resided thereof

From His heart out of pain love gave advice
Christ showed His inner pain worth the cost
Denial to self love, He paid the price

Where to both neither love nor pain was lost
In finding the difference, I tried in vain
But Christ showed me there be none; on the cross 
Knowing no difference of love and pain  
      ©Doris Elaine

Thoughts: Although, very recently I cried out to the Lord over not having nor having given true love of and to a human man; I've come to realize I have and have given true love. You see, I raised my children as a single mother in a very protective environment, being very cautious who I brought around my children to the point of them being my whole life. I even stayed devoted to a man for nearly two decades that I did not have true love for just to keep a roof over their heads. He lived in his place and I in mine; and when we did interact it was mostly at his place. And, of course this did not happen right away before a few life situations. But, then my children were grown. That's when I had realized I never developed friendship nor true love of a man due my loving devotion to my children. I was in protection mode and thought I had self-sacrificed love for myself. Now, I look back and realize what I thought I gave up for myself was out of love for my children, even they now see that. So, if love is nothing without pain and sacrifice, I paid the price in giving and obtaining true love. That is true love; self sacrifice in putting the well-being and happiness of others over your own. So, yes I have and have given true love. I no longer crave true love, as I know I have displayed it and that I have it with our Lord Jesus Christ who showed us the ultimate sacrificial love when He died on the cross in pain out of love for human kind. Thank you Lord for the sacrificial life I had and for embracing me in Your Love, now. To me, I see no difference in love and pain; one cannot and does not exist without the other. 

"Self love is popular, sacrificial love is Biblical" 

Thursday, January 20, 2022

A Poem for Thought!


Money: makes some act like their more important
Where some that have it want to act like
Their place to manipulate the less fortunate
I have to ask WHY?

Position: given to some their head does swell
Where they believing one's in lower positions them unlike 
Giving to their higher position reason to compel
I have to ask WHY?

Male: making some believe their better
Where some males act their place at woman to strike
As if woman second in rank and their place to wreck her 
I have to ask WHY?

Fun: to some to do at anyone's cost
No matter to whom it's affecting dislike
Where morals to this some have lost
I have to ask WHY?

Equal: in this world we're all created
Rich/poor, high ranking/or not, male/female,  fun/morals; alike
However, to the world's end one's action is fated
To this I need not ask WHY?
      ©Doris Elaine

Thoughts: There is so much injustice in the world that some just go along with the ways of others (the world) and or just do not care. The difference it would make if people would just realize we are all created equal; no matter one's financial situation, one's work  position or status, one being male or female, and in remembering one's affecting morals in fun activities. The Lord is coming back and our time here is short lived compared to eternity. And, when He does, one's fate beyond this world is sealed according to one's actions while here on earth because when He does come, it will be quickly. "And behold, I am coming quickly, and My reward is with Me, to give to everyone according to his work. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End, the First and the Last" (Revelation 22:12-13. NKJV). There will not be a second chance to treat others as Jesus/God meant for us to treat each other. To this I need not ask WHY? 

Tuesday, January 18, 2022

Acrostic Poem for Thought


 Real Love

Remembering how good it felt
Elevating my soul thereof 
Allowing my heart to melt
Love given from You above
Loyalty to this was greatly felt
Obligating me to speak of
Volumes to what is heartfelt
Everlasting be Your Love

                                                                                                                     ©Doris Elaine 

Thoughts: We humans, sometimes, look so hard for real love without our own hearts being filled with real love; never works. I know, I'm guilty of this myself. Over the course of the past few years I had thought the only thing to make me complete was the real love of a man. I had to learn, to receive real love, one has to have real love in one's own heart. And, this real love comes from Jesus Christ; He is real love. Also have learned, it is His real love that make's one complete. Without His real and everlasting Love one cannot give honest and real love. Real love starts with God!! 

Wednesday, January 12, 2022

Book project update

 Ok guys, I know I originally announced my current book project completion date to be 3-4 years, but I don’t believe it will take that long. Depending on if I self-publish or go through a publishing agency, I now think it will be more like 1-3 years. Just a brief update here! 

Monday, January 3, 2022

Book Announcement

📚 Hello Guys,

It is now time to announce my current book project. Although I have been very hesitant to write my story/testimony, and somewhat embarrassed over some decisions in my life; however, it has been said by a few that I have an awesome testimony from birth to my current life. Thus, my current book project is my life story and testimony of survival due God's intervention throughout my life. My life has been a rollercoaster ride from birth. Many, many times God did intervein and I am most grateful for his intervention in my life, as most times I knew not of His intervention until looking back on my life. Things are better now, just still going through yet another season in life. I have learned, seasons in life will always be and to remain faithful no matter what season I am in. One thing I know now, that took my whole life up till now to learn, is no matter my struggle that God loves me and is looking out for me; He is at work in my life. Just learning to keep in mind that no matter what I am going through to put my trust and faith totally in the Lord. He has given me every reason to trust Him and my faith in Him grows everyday in my journey back home to God. As one growing spiritually, honestly don't know how I would have I gotten through some moments in my life had God/Lord not been by myside as the most awesome-partially-invisible God He is. From a very hard entry into this world to an older single mother with all children grown and no mate, my life has been and still is to His glory. 

Want mention book title at this point and probably want until published. However, if you want you can take a peek at the first two chapter's outline below. Still in first draft; thus, this outline may change a bit. But, it gives a brief look so far. It will be around 3-4 years before completion and published, I hope 🤞. DE

Outline of First Two chapters

Introduction. 1

Authors Note. 2

My Birth and Childhood. 3

    BIRTH.. 3



        MEAN BROTHER. 5



    TWO FORCES. 10




    DRUNK DADDY.. 15


Young Adulthood. 18


        FIRST CHILD.. 18


        CAR ACCIDENT. 20





        SINGLE LIFE. 28

P.S. Stay strong and faithful, as best you can, no matter what season in life you are going through. I will still post poems on occasion while turning my main writing focus on my book, my testimony. DE