Tuesday, April 19, 2022

His Protection

 




Your Protection is Awesome

 

For in this world sometimes hard to blossom 
But with You happy is made possible
As Lord, Your protection is awesome

I thank You Lord for what my life's become
Where I used to think it improbable
For in this world sometimes hard to blossom

In protecting me from drama of some
You gave me what I thought impossible
In Lord, Your protection being awesome

I now can smile with understanding
Because You know me better than myself
In this You proved to me notwithstanding

When understanding was hard in itself
You helped me see in the life of another
In possibly applying this to self

 

I realize the drama to self would smother
As in this world sometimes hard to blossom
But joy doesn't come from every other
Lord You showed, Your protection is awesome 
      ©Doris Elaine

Thoughts: The Lord's protection is awesome and sometimes we don't see how He has protected us through out the years of our lives until much later due our own life events. I absolutely despise drama. I know this isn't unusual, as a great many people don't like drama. However, there are those who thrive in drama; just, not me. Me being one that cannot stand drama had a very dramatic life in raising my children as a single mom. That was an obligation where I had to deal with the stress of everyday life as a single mother in accepting the drama it created. Decades later and children all grown, I realized through the struggle I never really created, nor maintained a true friendship of another on any level. My children had become my life and my friend; my love and my melodrama. For a few years after they all went their own way, I was at a loss of what to do now; especially as for having the necessity and an obligation of interacting with another. After the rush of raising my children was over, I had woke and realized I had no friends, no mate, no one outside of my children. I got lonely and foolishly tried talking to a couple of guys on Social Media; mistake! All that did was bring unwanted drama and heartache into my life upon learning they were fake. Boy the drama I endured behind that need for friendship. It was through that moment in my life, the Lord drew me near and He became the one true friend I needed. Through out the raising of my children I had very little support, both financially and, in particularly mentally. Heck, all but one, of my five siblings turned their backs on me. These events in my life are explained in my book, soon to be released. After the Social Media experiences, I wondered for a while what is wrong with me that I don't have any friends, nor a mate. I felt at a loss in feeling like I don't know how to interact and make friends as my life was consumed in raising my children and I had never even learned how to be a friend. For a while I felt odd, like I am just a very mixed up and lost person in this world; which, in reality, I was. The Lord had become, and still is, my One True Friend in this world I knew I could and do count on to not judge me and to understand me. I ask Him, why and how for a while. Why and how did this happen to me that I ended up at this point in my life with no human friends. I gave up trying to understand and learned not to be so depressed that it had happened to me. Then, He showed me, through the evaluation of a co-worker that human friends aren't always what one needs in life. That, sometimes, friends can create more drama than one may need or that one can handle in life. You see, I walked into work to see my co-worker on the phone with a friend being loud and aggressive and dramatic. She was very upset and in a very bad mood once she hung up from the conversation. All I could think while she was on the phone, was I'm glad that's not me. Then a huge smile came across my face in realizing something I had not realized prior to witnessing her interaction with her friend. I thought, "If that's what friends do to you, I'm not sure I want friends", and then, "Well maybe just one or two good and true friend(s)". Then, a revelation about my life came into light. Maybe, just maybe, my life without ever developing any friends happened the way it was supposed to happen because I don't like, nor can handle too much drama in my life. And, if anyone knows this about me better than I knew myself, is Jesus Christ. Now, I feel my life did happen the way it was supposed to and now see this part of my life, or lack of friends within my life, as protection from too much drama in my life. Call me crazy and or silly, but I am now at peace with my being and know there is nothing wrong with me, that I am simply being protected from the drama that friends, or too many, friends can create. Through this realization of my life, I am no longer longing for, nor worried about having friends. I truly believe the Lord will send me or make it possible to develop the one or two good and true friend(s) I need in order to keep down drama in my life; and that is His awesome protection He bestowed in my life. Sometimes, your life is the way it is out of God’s awesome protection! 

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